Away forward

Had a lesson last night and overall was good. At times felt more confident about my ability to drive and could see progression, but at other times did some silly things which made me think again. Now last night I was close to just giving up but after a good nights sleep (actually thats a lie cause I haven't slept well in months!) woke up and could see all the positives. So much of what I did yesterday was good and the frustrating thing now is that I know exactly what I'm doing wrong so it's a case of sorting my head out to put them right. Also need to try and be less hesitant when it comes to junctions and islands. Once these are conquered my license will be mine!!!
Today was a good day at work, not money wise as the tight fisted one still pays my wages but for what I was doing. The day flew by and I felt I did something productive. Worked hard for my money and enjoyed it. I only wish I was paid what I'm worth. That day will come soon.
As for paying to watch England play on the net they can get stuffed. I already pay for sky and espn and my license fee so there is no way I will pay £5 to watch online. For god's sake this is our national team! In my eyes the national team should always be on free to air channels, not who bids the highest. Plus the pubs around this fine nation will miss out on punters would normally go to their local to watch the game as they have been told they can't show it. I'm interested to see how many go to the cinema to watch the game, considering we've already qualified. That leads me to another thing, if our qualification depended on this game, would one of the other networks found the extra capital to pay for it or would they have allowed it to go the way it has? To me the football fan is been fleeced once more and I await the day when it crashes down around the companies and big clubs cause fans have had enough.
One quickie, watched a wonderful comedy last night on the Big British Castle (Adam and Joe, I doff my cap!) 2 at 10 called Home Time. I've watched from the first episode and loved it. Maybe it's because its based around characters the same age as me or that the music reminds me of then or that it's set in the midlands (well Coventry but close enough!) that i like it but its really good and I suggest that you give it a look, it's on next Thursday at 10pm.
T.L.M.S

Oh and I know Coventry is in the West Midlands but to us black country folk it ain't really!

Stressful week

All in all a stressful week this week, lost two days money (one due to someone else), the albion lost to Barnsley and everything else seems to have got on top of me! Sometimes in life you think that you are owed a break, that some things have to start going right for you, at the moment that doesn't seem to be the case for me. I shouldn't allow it to get on top of me but that is much easier said than done. Its started to affect my everyday life. I'm more angry and depressed at the same time, I get less sleep due to everything been on my mind and I'm more or less stuck indoors all day. Its a vicious circle. The sad thing is I can see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's getting further away from me each week!
Another driving lesson tomorrow night and I am really looking forward to it. Seems like ages since my last one. The longer between lessons I go the more I think about driving. You know that light? Driving is it. I'm so close but with money the way it is its getting further away. It makes you want to scream!!
The football the past week hasn't given me any more joy. True yesterday we got a point at Preston and really we should have got all three points but after Tuesday's performance it was good to stop the rot we've got in. The worry now is goals and where they are coming from. I really do think we need to start playing Cox and Tex, not sure why they haven't been given more of a chance. Glad martis was dropped yesterday as he has started to become a liability, hopefully he will take stock and come back stronger. International break now for two weeks so no Albion fix next week, it's like pre season again!
Anyway time to join the rest of the country and waste a hour of my life and watch X factor. Might as well see who everyone will be talking about on site tomorrow, so far I haven't got a clue who anyone is so it's fair game for me! Just wish they would stop bleeding crying!!!!
T.L.M.S

Sunday Ramblings

Woke up again after another night of dreaming about driving. It consumes most of my life now, I dream about driving my own car (which I can't afford to buy), I dream about the little things which I struggle with driving and I dream about how my life would be now if I'd done this 10 years ago. Would I still be working for the company I'm at now? Probably not. I don't really want to be here now but the way things are I'm lucky to have a job, a underpaid one at that but a job none the less.
To help get extra money to pay some of my debts I decided to play a little bit of online bingo today with the little funds I had. Didn't win anything, not to say I haven't before. In the grand scheme of things I am up overall by a good amount just wish I saved some of it when I did win! The good thing is I managed to get some extra work Tuesday night so that should pay for this weeks lesson, only thing is I need to get in touch with my mate who's assistance I will need and he's away for the weekend! I hope he'll help me cause it could lead to some more work for us both and with christmas and stuff coming up we could both use the money it would bring in. But yet again this boils down to fact I can't drive! The amount of work I've had to turn down because of it is staggering and it's hit home this year big time. Need to get this monkey off my back quickly.
T.L.M.S